Two faint visible lines appeared.
I felt like a bulldozer hit my entire body.
I was scared of this new responsibility.
Grieving of my previous lifestyle.
Excited for this new adventure.
These feelings came all at once. I wasn’t sure how to feel what I was feeling.
So I took a shower and quietly cried and let myself feel.
No one talks about the mourning period. The changes that happen in your body. Not feeling like yourself anymore. The back & forth emotions of having to accept this new life.
I don’t want you to ever think that I didn’t want you.
I just wasn’t ready... are we ever?
As the days passed,
I realized that the excitement & joy was more overwhelming than fear.
maybe you are exactly what we need right now 🤍