I already feel like I’ve surrendered my body to this being growing inside of me.
The idea of motherhood is completely new and unreal.
Me a mother? Ha!
The cliche, “I can barely take care of myself” is true but for me it’s more,
Do I have the ability to give up my selfishness for another being? Am I willing and able to give up my time, energy and my hard earned money?
Am I able to give up my goals and ambitions for a being that barely even exists?
I love my life the way it is. I love the time I have. The freedom to move and do anything I want. I can easily hop on a bus to the mountains or take the next flight to Asia. I could suddenly switch careers.
Now, that doesn’t seem as easily possible.
Even with all these anxieties, I realize that I truly do want to be a mother.
As I mentioned many times, I’ve always imagined my future with a child. A baby? Not exactly. Adopting was in my future plans but this happened out of nowhere.
Who is actually ready to have kids?
The universe decided for us and the time is now.
(I am 100% pro choice. This is a decision I made on my own.)
I looked at my life and thought
I love my life.
I am with my bestfriend.
We’ve travelled and experienced life together for the past five years.
We know what we love.
This? It’s bonus.
It’s a result of our love.
& I cannot imagine our future anything but full of happiness, love and adventure like our past 5 years have been.
I’m terrified but
I think we’ll be okay.
Welcome home little one 🤍