the grief of change


Two faint visible lines appeared. ⁣⁣

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I felt like a bulldozer hit my entire body. ⁣⁣

fear⁣⁣

grief⁣⁣

excitement⁣⁣

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I was scared of this new responsibility.⁣⁣

Grieving of my previous lifestyle. ⁣⁣

Excited for this new adventure.⁣⁣

These feelings came all at once. I wasn’t sure how to feel what I was feeling. ⁣⁣

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So I took a shower and quietly cried and let myself feel. ⁣⁣

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No one talks about the mourning period. The changes that happen in your body. Not feeling like yourself anymore. The back & forth emotions of having to accept this new life. ⁣⁣

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I don’t want you to ever think that I didn’t want you. ⁣⁣

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I just wasn’t ready... are we ever?⁣⁣

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As the days passed,⁣⁣

I realized that the excitement & joy was more overwhelming than fear. ⁣⁣

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maybe you are exactly what we need right now 🤍 ⁣

#emmelinethings